the boring leading the bored
Wednesday, March 26, 2003
i guess it's been some days.
they've been good ones, in general...
i have mostly good days. im a very lucky girl.
the highlights of the week:
-illness. ive had some nasty upper-respiratory troubles... nose, throat... funfun.
-REHEARSALS! i am now officially ensnared in les mis... and what a happy captive i am. i am madly in love with nearly everything about the show... the story, the music, my one piece of costume i have so far, all my friends in the cast, a certain boy who plays a lead.....! ok well im not really in love with him but he is sooo amazingly attractive... and good at singing... i really dont know what to do with myself. hes just... soo.... ::waves hand at face:: !!yeahmyboyfriendsbandgirls!! but really, the play will be amazing. and if it isnt i will personally beat every member of the cast. in case of this occurring, please get me some bandages for when my knuckles start to bleed...
how unsightly!
went running today... at a park. away from the track team. it was very nice. the weather was great. i was at glacier ridge metro park, which is in this farmville on the outskirts of dublin. its interesting they call it glacier RIDGE because there is definitely not a ridge anywhere around. there are only two things i know that are flatter than that place and one of them is the tortilla i had for dinner. i wont elaborate on the other.
after running i drove around the park a little. and thats a big thing for me. cause i dotn drive. i havent driven since like, december. it went pretty well... i just didnt remember anything. i actually got up to like, 17 mph at one point. and thats pretty serious for me. im SUCH a speed demon.
ben is probably home from florida i guess. i havent spoken to him. i got an email that said "you probably dotn use this anymore." shrug.
today melissa meleski said to me: "you sound so much like mr. hayward!" and i was like "SWEET!" and it made me feel good.
sam, my soulmate, has abandoned me... for some BOY! *gasp*! it's ok though... hes a cool guy. but that means that two band members have BOYFRIENDS! i feel like some sort of minority... even though im still in the majority...
does anyone ever feel that small children are very good punting size?
im probably a horrible person...
but admit: its funny as a concept, even if not as a reality.
music: love liberty disco. and one day more.
Friday, March 21, 2003
today! was! fine!
and fun
school was school
typed for oracle--a fine time
ran a very short while in the rain--SAW BOYS TRACK TEAM! every time! every time! theres nowhere to go! save me!
and then the rapturous fun of the evening began around 4 45ish... okay well technically it really began when i walked into school and matt tells me that a bunch of us were gonna hang out tonight
so yeah, at that later time we spend FAR too long on the phone (heh heh heh) making plans and then making more plans
and we ended up doing this:
chinese at "dublin express"--> the fun begins when mom drops me off and nobody is there yet so we two wait in the car. then two semi-cute boys come out of the restaurant. they look at me... i give them a semi-nasty glance (i don't really know why) but then look again... they are still looking. they wave. i wave back. mom says "who are they?"...i dont know. so im like, thats funny. but then, the boys go to pull out... and zoom RIGHT past our car, like parallel to it... very close. it was weird. but then here it comes... a few minutes later THE BOYS DRIVE PAST US IN THE PARKING LOT! are they lost? i dont understand... they leave the parking lot and a few minutes later... THEYRE BACK AGAIN! it was HYSTERICAL. and maybe im totally lying to myself but im thinking that it had something to do with me... and it made me feel really good because ive been feeling particularly *un-cute* lately. eventually everyone showed up. it was a really good time. me and beth found ourselves nearly spitting our rice all over the table several times... such funny people. matt is a stitch especially. we then proceeded to....
CHICAGO-->quel bon film. it was terrific! musicals are so fab.... i especially like the way they made it a musical... no chintzy burst-into-song-in-the-middle-of-your-life in this one... fantasy sequences or people actually performing. sooo cool. i was especially in awe of the trial/tap dance scene. i found myself applauding... techie clap, bien sur. the company was great, the movie was great... what a good time.
tomorrow should be fun to. shopping for the trip, party chez engelhaupts and time with Alle afterwards. supercool.
music: ob-la-di ob-la-da was in my head all day...
so if you want some fun, take ob-la-di-bla-da!
Thursday, March 20, 2003
mm stupid me. must give kudos for all the getting in les mis people:
Sam, Stella n Jill: fellow chorus members
Andrea: NUN!
Miyoung: onlooker 1 ... whatever that is.
Boy Sam: MASTER OF THE HOUSE! Thenardier
Matt: JAVERT!!! do you beweive it?
uh... if i forgot you, hit me with a large piece of seafood.
today was a fine day... in general, im thrilled with my life as an evil, out-of-shape, weird 15-year old. and i mean that honestly.
number one good news: my lucky underwear didnt fail me... i got into LES MIS!!! i am a ::chorus member:: which is totally cool for me. i guess they were into the whole jackhammer routine.
other good news: i ran today, and it was very nice. and then i rewarded myself with a jos louis.
bad news: i ate the last jos louis. you see, jos louis are the most amazing food in the world. on the box, they are called "chocolate feasts" and it's competely true. jos louis are canadian snack cakes. they are about the size and shape of a moon pie. they are two thin layers of luscious chocolate cake with delightfully sweet cream filling in between and covered with a light, thin later of delectable chocolate. so good. so canadian. but i repeat myself.
we're goin to chipotle for dinner tonight. it oughta be *swell*. but i have this sinking feeling there will be people there. shrug.
c'est tout.
music: uh.... while my guitar gently weeps. and old brown shoe. harrison.
ooh ooh... and layla!
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
hi.
happy birthday jeff. hes getting so old. he'll be in high school with me next year. so scary. i really hope he likes his present.
hang time tonight, sans ben. it will be weird, he's ALWAYS there. we will have good fun though.
audition went really crappy. i sounded like a mentally challenged, tone deaf person on a jackhammer. but hey, heres hoping they pity me and let me be in the chorus. Mr. Chesser DID say that i had a beautiful voice after i was done... heres hoping he wasnt lying >_<
ran in the rain today. it was nice. i got very very drippy wet... but it was warm and it was nice. i even saw abu during my run... the track guys run through parctically my backyard. its odd. im never safe...
ok well um... yeah. thats all
music: sixpence
Tuesday, March 18, 2003
im going to RETCH. thats right, retch.
tepid water+nerves exploding=retch.
i have my audition in T-minus an hour and a half....
"and now im all alone again nowhere to turn no one to go to...."
yikes. im hoping that my lucky underwear will pull me through... o_- but im still scared. and being scared makes me suck. and sucking makes me scared. what i really want more than anything in the world is some chocolate, but Amanda told me today that if i ate it it would form a *mucus* wall in my throat. that isnt good. it stops me from singing, and its just plain NASTY. seth tells me that lemon water will help me. and as he has saved me several times from predicaments like being killed by a man in the woods with a knife and running into doors that nobody opened for me, i listened and made some. its pretty crazy.
random show tune: into the woods its time to go i hate to leave i have to though
anyway, um, eep. anna said she would send good vibes to us. thats good. AGH I ADDED TOO MUCH LEMON TO MY WATER! but yeah, today has been fine. finished OGT. it was reel fun. today's sad news was that due to rachel doan's illness, the backgammon tournament didnt happen. however, we did get to play about a half a game in the morning before school started. it was fun and it drew some attention. i liked it a lot because it reminded me of those "happenings" they had in the sixties. i took a french test. we did the listening part and i didnt really understand the words... it was like a foreign language... one more foreign than french!
speaking of french, t-minus, eh, 28-some hours til war? i have some lingering hope that the guy will just haul his ugly face out of iraq and everyone will be fine... its sooo not happening. but i dont really like war. there are some other people that i dont want to get drafted. including myself. i bet theyll draft chicks if push comes to shove.
enough.
music: ugh.... on my own.
Monday, March 17, 2003
spring. im so torn... i love it but i want it to go away. spring has very bad connotations for me. and its still just soooooooooooo intoxicating. intoxicating is the only word for it... especially with "toxic" in it. sigh. i wonder if spring messes anyone else up too... or if they realise that it does....
went for a very long walk today to finish buying jeffs present. it takes like, an HOUR to get to music exchange and back if im not running. when i got there, there were these like, goth-punk kids from worthington skating in the parking lot. and they had their preppy girlfriends with them. i felt really self-conscious, just cause i always do. but it was just sorta like "hm."
in other news: the baaaaaand. yes, the one and only "My Boyfriend's Band."
members: (in reverse alphabetical order)
Sam Smith: drums
Miyoung Smith: bass
Andrea Rissing: rhythm guitar and backup vocals
leaving...
Me: lead guitar and lead vocals.
i have no idea why they picked me for that. i had nothing to do with it. i really am not frontgirl material.
wanna hear our motto?
"We're girls."
heh heh heh
in other other news: DONT MISS THE B-LUNCH BACKGAMMON TOURNEY TOMORROW! it will rock your casbah, i promise. me and rachel doan provide the boards, you provide the mocking laughter. really though it will be sweet.
music: i am the walrus, bien sur!
Friday, March 14, 2003
IM FREEE.... but only at 10 30 at night, of course. just got back from the "fat pats preview dance" (=theatre geek party). lots of fun. dancing, getting really smelly, chilling with my girlfriends and friends. made me feel really ghettofabulous with all the music. believe it or not, i do NOT actually feel empty without eminem. and i dont want ANYONE to lick me ANYWHERE!
the funny thing of the night was me waiting for my ride. doug was there too and we were making small talk and i was like, "dude i didnt dance with ANY boys tonight!" and i didnt. and doug was like "you should have asked me!" and i was like, "shoot, youre right." and i was like, "dude will you dance with me?!" and it took some convincing but i got him to dance with me right there in the parking lot. it was cute and really silly.
disclaimer: i am not madly in love with doug. i was bored.
now to catch up with you kids, as promised.
THE SKI TRIP:
not as slushy as i thought, to begin. i learned to ski... in about half a day. i was down black diamonds by around 2. i had good teachers (yeah ben and rojo) and surprisingly (or not) enough, Lauren learned to do ANOTHER thing with the usage of the "bens side is left, mimus side is right" car metaphor. its really amazing. there were only like, 7 of us skiing. i was the only girl. it was good fun though, and afterwards the boys (ben, dise, rojo, and jeff) came back here to play video games and eat pizza. we were all really sleepy and sore, everyone was so cute. and we played super monkey ball. there is something SO wrong with that game. monkeys...inside glass balls... weird. you can bowl and play pool and stuff. just sooo weird. everyone went home later, it was all fun.
DINOSAURS:
ive decided, after a little deliberation, i dont believe in dinosaurs. i am well aware there is all sorts of scientific proof, ive even seen dinosaur bones at the smithsonian and stuff... but i just dont believe there were ever big lizards walking the earth. i know im wrong. it doesnt bother me. i just dont believe in them.
LES MIS:
im in love. "im doing everything all wrong/oh god, for shame/ i cant even SING..." but yeah i must be in the show. my audition is next tuesday... ill just weep if/when i dont get in. im singing "on my own" for it... the easy song... but its still sorta tough cause... oh yeah... i cant sing. but i just adore the show... all the music is sooo beautiful and the story is amazing. now lets take a poll: who thinks ryan masterson will get ValJean? EVERYONE!
music: jars of clay (the eleventh hour)
Thursday, March 13, 2003
i'm still alive, i swear! im just a busy little girl. ill be up and posting again soon, hopefully. it's been an interesting week. heres a preview of whats to come:
-ski trip
-dinosaurs
-les mis
music: depeche mode
thanks andrea! mwah!
Friday, March 07, 2003
oooh ooooh i forgot more about today. dumb me.
went out tonight to Borders. i love that place. looked at the Les Mis soundtrack... it would cost my life savings. i saw some of the most amazing stuff there. if you ever feel the need to buy something for me, hit borders. they had this thing called the Andy Warhol Pop Box that had a bunch or stuff having to do with andy warhol in it... it said that he used to COLLECT STUFF IN BOXES! LIKE MEEEE! and that made me excited. i also looked at this awesome book on makeup. it was amazing, with all these celebs done up like other old celebs. susan sarandon as bette davis, calista flockhart as audrey hepburn. and they were all but dead-ringers. it was amazing beyond amazing. they even did up gwyneth paltrow as JAMES DEAN! and it LOOKED LIKE HIM! wild. just wild. they had a yoga deck there too... i want one of those bad. they had this great book on vincent van gogh and another great book on surrealism. they were both cheap too, but 1. i couldnt force myself to indluge myself and 2. the surrealism book was practically softcore porn! its so annoying that art and smut intermingle so much... i think im too square to be an artist. there was a book on the history of the tee-shirt too. i was intrigued, im so fond of those things. well i should go sleep cause i have to be up at the buttcrack of dawn for a day of falling down a muddy, slushy hill. oh well, < its about the people >
night.
school was a mite stressful with makeup work and all. i have most of it under control. i forgot my admit slip like i do every time im sick and once again a teacher for a really arbitrary class asked me for it and nobody else did. the past three times the only teacher that have checked were my study hall teacher, my health teacher, and my art teacher. it seems weird to me. we took our group test in english, sans gia. i guess shes in florida or something for a while. thats exciting for her... but it miss her : ) i spent some extra quality time with dancin dobbins today... getting chem help. i think he hates me now because he overheard me talking to some friends about his dance routine and i wasnt altogether kind. i regret it now. he actually wasnt that bad. it was just kinda freaky.
after school i ran. it was quite excellent. the weather was beautiful. i ran to music exchange with intents of buying jeff more birthday things (i seem to be devoting a lot of energy to this birthday... which is good i guess.) but i only stuffed $11 in my shoe and the vines cd was $12. sad. the great part of the run was that i found some shattered taillight parts on the road. i took one home, im giving it to sam as a present. heres the deal:
WHY DONT PEOPLE GIVE MORE PRESENTS? I THINK OUR CULTURE NEEDS MORE GIFT-GIVING! JOIN ME! it doesn't have to be like, diamonds. just little things to brighten peoples day. i think its a good idea. hey, hobbits give gifts all the time. it cant be too wrong.
when i got home ben came over for caffeine. he took an orange soda. those dont have caffeine. silly boy. it was a really good time though... we talked and stuff. im getting sooo close to sixteen and the closer i get the more obvious it is that things just aren't going to happen. i know its for the better but my stupid stupidness is upset. dad invited him to stay for dinner. he declined, he had to go watch geek tv with dise.
my friends are fighting. i wish they wouldnt. everyone is hurting and angry and wont let go of the conflict. it is sad to see them fighting, especially with the tough stuff in most of their lives right now.
music: Belle and Sebastian. theyre really good.
skiing in the 60 degree tomorrow. that should be a hoot.
Thursday, March 06, 2003
i have this feeling that ill never go back to school again... hmm... yeah it was a snow day today so im a pretty happy camper. i took advantage of this opportune day to... um... watch some tv... and i went shopping with mom. shes looking for stuff to decorate our newly red living room. shes dragged me to lots of these home decor places and heres what is weird to me: they have these stores that sell what is basically manufactured art. "art" that is designed to match your sofa. shes like, "do you like this and this?" and im like... not really. why dont you go for that cute little print of the doggie in the bathtub.
on the plus side, i bought some really bizarre red pants ($2 at marshalls...) and part of my little brother's birthday present. at this antique store they had LICENSE PLATES! and im like, thats pretty sweet. so i got some for jeff because i love him.
todays other excitement is that ive started a blog for mimus message.... im not sure why exactly, but it sounded like a good enough idea. if youre interested or something it can be found at ...i think. that may be wrong. if it works, you can go watch me get all psycho-fundamentalist-conservative-oh-my-goodness-dare-i-say-it-christian. well im gonna go call joe and make him help me with math.
music: vernal equinox and linkin park
... odd combination.
Wednesday, March 05, 2003
i was sick again today. "sick". it was really weird... i went to school feelin fine, then i suddenly had this explosive hot fever... i was MELTING it was way gross... so i went home... and then felt pretty much okay. it was annoying. now i get the benefits of scads of makeup work and im missing going to church tonight to hang out with my favorite people in the world...
wah.
i worked on moms mural today. i am only half done and its almost been a year... its just pathetic. its not like im doing something amazing either, a four-year-old could have painted it. i think i probably just really suck at art. its like david donofrio... i really suck but noone will tell me so, and i go on thinking im some prodigy or something. ah yes, i got a brochure from carnegie mellon in the mail today, went oooh cooooooll.... too bad i SUCK AT ART! but i love it so much... sniff.
today's other downer: we arent going to toronto on my birthday anymore. i miss toronto, i was so excited to go back, but noooooo dads boss doesnt want me to shop on Queen Street and go to the art gallery of Ontario... the only good side here is that ill be in town for my big #16... not like its gonna be any huge deal. i wont be able to drive, my friends threw a really cool surprise party for me last year so its not happening again. oh well.
music: Send me an angel, Denison Marrs
and whatevers on my launchcast player... fleetwood mac right now.
Tuesday, March 04, 2003
So i guess i have one of these dealies now. i was inspired by Andrea and Sam, my girlfriends. you know, up until now i always thought, "dude, i should never make a blog. nobody wants to read about me. honestly" i dont know what changed my mind but if you find it, could you shoot it?
so today i slept all day. our family has been doing a lot of sleeping lately. my mom says its the flu. i had a very strange dream... its almost a recurring dream except its one theme going backwards in chronological order... im not telling what its about. but lets just say it was about building a house.... the first dream was me living in the house. the second one was building the house itself, and this last one was deciding i was going to build the house. its very odd...
when i woke up i was confused.
then i opened a window
and spring was there. the smell is in the air... its a totally intoxicating smell... its so sweet and fresh. it smells like life. it reminds me of last spring... i wrote a journal about it last spring. last spring was a very odd time in my life... i hope this spring isnt the same. for all the excitement of last spring it was very bad for me.
heres hoping that the smell of spring isnt the drug it used to be.
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