the boring leading the bored

Monday, December 29, 2003
it's either boredom or vanity.

L Love is something you deeply believe in.
a You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
u You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
r You are a social butterfly.
e You are a very exciting person.
n You like to work, but you always want a break.

D You have trouble trusting people.
a You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
v You have a very good physical and looks.
i You are always smiling & making others smile.
s You are very broad-minded.

A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it.
D You have trouble trusting people.
E You are a very exciting person.
F Everyone loves you.
G You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H You are not judgemental.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
J Jealousy.
K You like to try new things.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
M Success comes easily to you.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
O You are very open-minded.
P You are very friendly and understanding.
Q You are a hypocrite.
R You are a social butterfly.
S You are very broad-minded.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V You have a very good physical and looks.
W You like your privacy .
X You never let people tell you what to do.
Y You cause a lot of trouble.
Z You're always fighting with someone

that was fun. thanks miyoung/sunny! here's my thoughts.

L i dunno how i feel about love anymore.
a true.
u true.
r maybe sometimes. in my dad's words, i am an introverted extrovert.
e i think im a snooze. maybe im just being modest but... im not. n true... i dont ALWAYS want a break though. sometimes i overwork myself.

D eh... not really. no.
a true. again.
v why thank you! despite the broken english this is flattering!
i i hate my smile. a lot.
s ok... maybe? sometimes im really not.

again--that was fun. today was alright. except that i wasnt feeling well so i slept all day and this morning i was really hostile to ben for no real reason and i meant to call and apologize but i never got a hold of him. i need to apologize... i dont know why i was so mean! i just... was. my dad said it was a defense mechanism and he's probably right. this is so difficult. im really confused. i don't know what to do.

anyway... uhm... going shopping tomorrow, that should be good. and working on my project, im sure. screw this english paper, i simply refuse to work on it. my creative writing project is a mite more tolerable though so i'll take it. whatever. i really dont want to go back to school. its meaningless. seems like lots of things are fairly meaningless. like college or a career or marriage.

call me jaded.

i dont know what to do with my future. ive actually been considering working with my hands recently. being a mechanic or something. its just a whim, most likely, but im willing to think about anything. with any luck i'll actually manage to marry rich (arjun?!?!) and just live off the guy's money and do nothing. or do lots of things. i'm having doubts about this whole "marrying for love" things. i think im rather incapable of being in a successful, loving marriage (lets not discuss raising children) just by my nature. maybe that's okay at this age. but it makes me kinda sad, too.

i am all a lost generation.

music: josh groban's new album, fleetwood mac

ps. this is dedicated to frank. just because. i wanna be with him everywhere. hope your aunt does ok, frank.






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