the boring leading the bored

Wednesday, July 28, 2004
punk is dead
 
so i'm a postmodernist. you wanna fight about it?

and, like my views on dinosaurs, i have been disproven in my thinking many times, but to no avail: i cant help but feel i am living in a world that is over. rock and roll was born and so was jesus christ. the second one died, im still not sure about the first. at best it lingers on.

the aforementioned disproving occurred in several art museums in canada. i was most impressed with the combination of sculpture and computer animation that i am too lazy to explain. i wish i had a picture. thousand words, as they say. yet i think my hope is misplaced--i was not seeing things that were new, i was just seeing things that were good art. but i saw no new genre. that's the problem. no new genres. even anti-art is gone. it's all over.

however, i was recently exposed to another reason to feel frustrated: personal postmodernism. i read a book (kurt vonnegut's deadeye dick) that ssuggested that people's lives are stories, and that they play out just like a story: introduction, rising action, climax, falling action, denoument. and whatever's left is epilogue. it just cleans up after the story. nothing happens. it's all over. i guess i already knew that. i guess that's the reason that i want to die before i get old. but what's worse is the thought of peaking too early. what if i've already had my climax? what if the rest of my life is just the postmodern wasteland that i am so afraid is true?

it probably isnt. but you never know.

why do people keep happening to me?

music: love her madly-the doors



Monday, July 26, 2004
our kind of love was nooo fun
 
just got back from seeing the notebook. it was pretty good. however, i did not cry, proving definitively i have no soul.

in other news, yes, i am back from canada. yes, it was fun. i shopped a lot and went to some art museums and had a fine time. no, im not leaving again for a while because my camping trip got cancelled. yes, im sorta bummed but it's okay. it leaves me lots of chill time.

went to ikea in toronto, which was really fun, and i stumbled upon something i have wanted since i was in third grade. my nine-year lust was finally satisfied, and i bought myself a mosquito net canopy. it is the coolest thing ever. it makes me feel like a princess. i even put a garland of flowers around the ring that it hangs from so it's pretty. am i babbling like a child about it? yes. yes i am.

fin.

music: pablo picasso



Wednesday, July 14, 2004
where are you darling?

i dont normally like to make just "this is what's happening" posts, because lets be honest, we are young and self-centered and we dont care what's going on in each other's lives. we just want something novel or colorful or funny. or maybe i just speak for myself. regardless, i am going to be indulgent (indulgent is one of my favorite words) and just do it.

so. THIS is what's happening.

it just kind of dawned on me that i have one real day here, and then i wont be in ohio for more than one day until august. why? because:

Thursday 15 July- Cedar Point til 1 am.
Friday 16 July through Saturday July 24- Canada with family.
Monday 26 July through Friday 30 July- Camping with church in West Virginia

it isnt that im not excited about all of these things, cause i absolutely am. it's just that that leaves me two days to do the stuff i want to do, like watch movies with people (jason, memento sometime?), make a baby blanket for Martin and Denise's baby, and be a lazy, lazy piece of crap. so tomorrow should be crazy. why? because:

-start/finish baby blanket
-take it to the Kestners.
-drop off shannon's mexico present
-xocoffee with kristen and billyxo
-go to the bank, settle debts and get out CANADA CASH
-pack for canada
-pick out what senior pictures i want
-pool party

i think that's it.
i hope that's it.
please, please let that be it.

and im totally excited about almost everything that's going on in my life, i am. mostly because the things im NOT excited about i'm just not doing (summer reading, running, being responsible). but i'm just slightly overwhelmed.

im making the cutest blanket for baby kestner whose name i can never recall. its pink and paisley and flannel and awww. yes, she is a girl.

i will miss people. i miss seth already, but that is because HE left ME. i will miss my late night im friends, you know your own names. i will miss shannon, who i havent seen in forever. i will miss andrea. i will miss... gosh. everyone?

onto the random stuff that you will blow off.

my appetite has been really a mess since mexico. all kinds of food make me feel sick, im hungry at weird hours, i'm lactose intolerant... oh wait.

i am getting SO SICK of my music. i need new music. but i also need a rocky horror poster. and rollerskates. and more cute underwear. and stuff in canada. welcome to being an obsessive spender, Lauren. how did i get here? i used to be so frugal... i think it started with my birthday this year, or maybe last christmas, when i got lots of gift cards and learned the rush of buying a hella lot of stuff. and now i just cant stop. ever.

i need a haircut. for my next cut i think i am going to get a slanty one. you know. slanty. where its longer in the front and shorter in the back? yeah. and i almost scheduled an appointment for tomorrow afternoon, but i realized i have a coffe appointment. bad luck. i am going to be one shaggy bird by the time i get home from all this.

c'est tout, je pense. merci.

music: fleetwood mac

ps. check out my livejournal and see my babies.


Friday, July 09, 2004
movies i want to see

cause i like making lists.

spiderman 2
the notebook
king arthur
troy
kb2
girl, interrupted
coffee and ciggarettes
the stepford wives
super size me
the terminal
donnie darko
memento

anchorman is not on this list because i am going to see it with xomaggiexo!

i spent four hours in a grocery store today.

music: 1952 vincent black lightning


Thursday, July 08, 2004
look what i made!



yeah, sorry the picture is blurry. slow slow shutter speed cause the flash was off+the shaky hands that run in my family. but yeah, i made this dress and i wanted to showwww.

and seth is my new favorite. seth, i love you like a brother. thank you so much for everything... have a swell time in florida, and i'll see you when you get back. we'll talk philosophy or boys or something. xo.mimu.

i guess that's all.

amen.

music: disintegration ::drool::


Monday, July 05, 2004
gringa

hiya. i'm home from mexico! and it was a mighty fine trip. i did things i have never done before, like wash my hair in the rain because my house had no running water. and i learned to speak/understand spanish. and i hung out in the boys house. i miss boys house. i also miss the dancing room. and the couches covered in plastic. and grandma's demon-infested shrine. ok well i dont really miss that. or the drug dealer. but still.

i miss my host mommy and daddy and sisters. and caila and mili. i miss tiffani. and mariano's van. and clay. oh and seth, whom i love like a brother. and cute latino-emo andres. i even miss click-click bang. i miss mo, even though i hate him, and i miss jello.

definitely just went into the kitchen, whimpered "i want jello" and started to cry.

things i missed WHILE in mexico: the smiths, mukul, coheed and cambria, my bed, cheeseburgers, candy, chocolate

things i DID NOT miss while in mexico and was reminded of (all-too) shortly after getting home: being alone, ben, baseball

what the crap.

and i miss cristina.

music: the smiths-the queen is dead

yeah i know this makes no sense to anyone. in the words of dear dr frank, "i didnt make (it) for YOU!"