the boring leading the bored

Wednesday, January 19, 2005
post-script.

some cds i want, in case you're feeling generous.
a-hem.

jeff buckley-grace
tv on the radio-[i dont even know what it's called]



i would go out tonight, but i haven't got a stitch to wear

this charming man
so i opted not to go to the bright eyes show tonight
he said, "return the ring"
and i REALLY feel like dancing
he knows so much about these things
because i updated my iPod today and am feeling all music-y.

all men have secrets, and here is mine
i dont really want to go to work tonight
so let it be known
in fact, i wasnt even scheduled. im just helping out jessica.
and why, because you asked me to
i'd prefer to stay home and laze about or make something.
so what difference does it make?
but i have to study. stupid exams.
but i'm still fond of you
and my sewing machine is broken. but it's getting fixed tomorrow!
the devil will find work for idle hands to do
and i am also getting my hair cut. finally.
and now you make me feel so ashamed cause ive only got two hands

stop me if you think that you've heard this one before
i just havent made anything in ages. not a damn thing.
i was delayed, i was waylaid
but i kind of feel okay about it. i still feel really creatively healthy.
i crashed down on the crossbar
i just kind of want to work.
who said i'd lied to her?
and by work i dont mean the jo-ann fabric.
because i never, i never!
i'm tired of it being cold.
only slightly, only slightly less
and i want very much to spraypaint.

i am a man of means--
i need to go to the bank.
of slender means!
i need to cash some checks.
every sensible child will know what this means
and i need to buy a respirator because im too paranoid to continue my thing in my room without one.
and when im lying in my bed
i feel super complacent.
i think about life and i think about death
but i am happy right now. just, about things in general.
and neither one particularly appeals to me.

i decree today that life is simply taking and not giving
ive just felt so alive recently.
does the body rule the mind, or does the mind rule the body?
like im a flower that's blooming.
i dont know.
yeah, that's super weird. but... i dont know.
and if you must go to work tomorrow
im just in a good place. i have ideas.
well if i were you i wouldn't bother
and i think part of it is the people with whom i am surrounding
it just wasnt like the old days anymore

time's tide will smother you
i have to go to work now.
i wish i could...
damn it. i wrote again.
but that joke isn't funny anymore.

music: the smiths.