the boring leading the bored

Tuesday, September 21, 2004
uuuuugh

i am in the midst of the worst night of sleep i have ever suffered. i am in a good deal of pain. my jaw aches inexplicably, and my ears feel as if they are being stabbed by large, rather blunt needles. my head pounds. laying my head on a pillow only intensifies these feelings. i have awoken three or four times so far, since midnight, meaning i have not had more than about an hour and a half of sleep at a time. those periods of sleep have been HORRIBLE. i keep having these delirious dreams where i am trying to do math or reconfigure images or something... they make NO sense and i awake because i am attempting to wrench myself from their madness. i am very, very cold. i am even now on the verge of tears but cannot move myself to cry. and i am completely alone. i just got on here to express myself i guess, or to occupy myself... i dont want to sleep again. but i dont want to be awake.

uuugh. needless to say i wont be at school today.



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